Forgiving, Forgetting, Forsaking

You came back. Like we wrote our destinies ourselves, we pleasantly made them cross again. But it's not like our stories, it's nothing like fiction. I'm no longer that fourteen-years-old girl who would believe you blindly. Any move we make from now on will have consequences we have never thought of. If we're gonna light this candle again, we gotta be ready for the fight it brings along. Yes, I still think of our light, I still feel it. However, I'm not so sure I'm willing to take this battle, not knowing the one beside me. I'm letting you in, although I shouldn't. It might tear my family apart, it might break every single bond I took years to make. It's a stupid decision I should have avoided. But here we are again and I wonder if I can undo this invitation I made when I called you back in, I wonder if there's a way for me to do this without giving up on you. I am not getting back at you and I'm not sure you understand this. It's just that I don't know if you are the one to reveal me to them, when I'm giving up on their approval.
Once more, I'll ask for advices I won't follow. Once more I'll fall. Still, why can't I stop this?

Previously: @ Bubble Wrap, do McFly
Currently: @ Breathe Me, da Sia
Later On: @ Trouble, do Coldplay